After turning in the first draft of my debut novel to my editor last week, I’ve been in a weird situation. It took me roughly six weeks to finish the first draft of my novel, and that includes one week of adding, subtracting, and re-working certain scenes. I was so excited to type “the end” and send it off to my editor, who came highly recommended by others. Getting an editor was essential to producing a fine novel (especially if you can’t edit well yourself) – many a person told me that. What people failed to tell me is how torturous the wait can be after you’ve turned in your manuscript.
I’m going to preface the next question by saying that since turning in my manuscript, I have published my author’s website, started building a mailing list, established my social media accounts (Twitter, Facebook, and Instagram), and consuming a ton of information on marketing and promotion. Furthermore, writing this post, relaying my frustrations to my growing audience, creating (hopefully) engaging content.
All because no one told me how hard the wait would be.
Am I afraid that my work is terrible? Of course. I think every creative has that fear. But I’m patient, too. I want to know if I’m on the right track. Do you like my work, or do you REALLY like my work. That’s what I want to know.
This is my first go at the indie author rodeo and I have much to learn. I’m working on something behind the scenes and I’m not quite ready to announce things yet. But I will say that September means a lot to me, and I don’t just mean how awesome that song by Earth, Wind, and Fire is. The journey is also one of growth. Leaning in, believing that you have something that will connect with others is not an easy thing to do. And yet here I am, leaning into fear and discomfort, choosing courage.